Friday, July 17, 2009

Like a Drink of Cool Water

Psalm 17:15
“As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness;
I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness.”


I read this today and started thinking. Does this really reflect my attitude? I know it is true that I will be satisfied when I awake in His likeness. After all, the goal of the Christian life is to be conformed to the image of Christ. This is what it is all about. I know this. I want this. Truly I do.

But. Do I live like I want this, like I believe this, like I love Him more than life itself everyday in every way. Sadly, I find that I am far too easily distracted and I settle for so much less.

I saw something in me over the past week when I was feeling so crummy that I really did not like. When feeling crummy, I was very self absorbed. Prayer was not number one on my list of joys. In fact, I found that missing church two weeks in a row really did a number on me. There is a reason we are commanded to not forsake the gathering with other believers. We need that community of faith to encourage us to worship and to spur us on to good works. I went back to choir on Wednesday night and as our music pastor led us in prayer I was overwhelmed by this joy to be back. I really enjoyed that rehearsal Wednesday. It was worship, and I had missed it so much.

And my little excursion into Facebook land has got me thinking, too. It’s just too blasted easy to get distracted by things that don’t matter. I’m not saying I’m not enjoying reconnecting with my past. I am enjoying it. But it also brings back memories of a me that I am glad I am not anymore. I’ve come a long way from the me I was to the me I am now, and I wouldn’t change that. I wouldn’t go back. Things have been pruned that needed pruning.

What I am finding now that I’m feeling better again is that I really want to lay aside the weights that so easily entangle and press on toward the goal of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. I want to be holy for He is holy. I want to see Him, savor Him, enjoy Him and worship Him in a way I have never done before.

I’m giving a little shout out to my blog friend, Elle. She introduced me to a book on her blog that she is reading this summer, and I just received my copy and started reading it. It is Hoping for Something Better: Refusing to Settle for Life as Usual by Nancy Guthrie. It’s a study through the book of Hebrews. As I read the introduction today, it was like a drink of cool water to a parched tongue, and tears flowed as she described how I've been feeling lately to a T and I prayed, "This is what I've been looking for." And having recently experienced extreme dehydration during my virus, I am newly sensitive to the benefits of cool water on a parched tongue. I am so looking forward to digging into the book of Hebrews, one of my favorite books of the Bible already, and learning to see Jesus in all His significance and beauty, to remind myself again what an awesome Savior and Lord He is. My appetite is whetted, and I’m ready for some meat. Thank you, Elle, for sharing what you’re studying on your blog. I am benefitting from it, and it comes at just the moment I needed a fresh reawakening of my passion for Jesus.

Trying to Reason With a Three-Year-Old

Or Conversations in futility

Me: Boo, why are you crying?

Boo: Cause I'm sad.

Me: But why are you sad?

Boo: Cause I'm crying.

Me: But why are you crying?

Boo: Cause I'm sad.


Alrighty then. Glad we cleared that up.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Because I Didn't Have Enough to Do...

I finally overcame my reluctance and joined Facebook. I'm not sure why I've dragged my feet except that once you're on then people can find you. That's the good and the bad of it, I guess. I don't know why I worry too much about people finding me, but privacy is a good thing. Anyway, I joined this week, and it's fun finding people I hadn't even thought about in years.

I think it's the fact that my 20th high school reunion is this weekend (we're not going) that got me thinking about all the bridges to the past I've left untravelled for so long that I'm having to rack my brain when I hear certain names come up. The people I really want to reconnect with, though, besides a few high school friends, are people who I went to church with while growing up and people from churches we've been members of over the years but have lost contact with over time. And I've already found a few of them. So far the Facebook experience is turning out to be positive.

Here's one of the things I'm not going to like: friend requests from people I don't remember except in a really tangential sort of way - friend of a friend of a friend. I got one today and I recognized the name but had to get out my yearbook to see who it was. Then I realized it wasn't someone I'd actually been friends with, but we do have mutual friends. What is the Facebook etiquette here? You don't have to confirm all friend requests, I'm sure. You know me and my hermit tendencies.....

Anyway, I really didn't need another thing to distract me and waste time, but here it is. I can see I will have to put some serious limits on the time I'll allow myself to play around with this.

Heard at My House Last Night:

J: "If you see a body lying around anywhere, let me know."

Context is everything.......

Bet you're just dying to know what kind of context could have elicited that comment, huh?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Note to Self.....

When they advise plenty of fluids when you're sick, they mean it.

Well, I think I'm going to live a little longer. This virus knocked me out for over a week. I have felt BAD, but I think I'm finally on the mend. My house is destroyed - when mom's sick that happens. I can't complain, though. My husband really has been so great this week when I was just unable to do anything except lie on the couch and moan while the world spun dizzily around me. I cannot say enough about his sweet attention to all the things that he did this week.

I went back to the doctor yesterday because I was just not getting better. Turns out I managed to become extremely dehydrated in the midst of all the crumminess, so now that I'm drinking and forcing myself to eat again I am finally starting to feel better. Not yet 100 per cent, but on the mend.

I just looked at my Google reader and there are 175 unread posts in there. I have really dropped off the blog world map lately. Maybe I'll get back soon. I miss it. Until then, I'm off to drink some more Gatorade.

Happy Tuesday.

Monday, July 06, 2009

Feeling Crummy

I haven't dropped off the face of the earth, though I might feel better if I were to. Summer cold/flu is the worst. It started Saturday night with headache and general unspecified achiness and ickiness, and by Sunday morning I had to stay home from church with fever and headache and chesty cough. Not feeling any better today and fever's higher. I would try to be poetic or prosaic, but I just don't feel like it. I don't know if I'm ever going to get back to blogging. Guess I'm calling the doctor tomorrow if I don't feel better. Bummer.

On a lighter note, here are some pictures from our early July 4th celebration. They had fireworks at the Arch Friday and Saturday night, and we decided at the last minute to go on Friday because the weather was looking bad for the rest of the weekend. In fact, we almost didn't go at all because we weren't sure how Boo would do with the late night. We had a great time, but she's been cranky the past couple of nights as pay back.

There were tons of people there and we went first to the Arch and let Boo and the boys 'touch the rainbow arch' - which Boo is always wanting to do and explored the museum for a while then went down closer to the river for the fireworks show. The boys can now say they have actually touched the Mississippi River. Woo-hoo! Simple things amuse me.....

Here are some pictures and then I'm going back to my post on the couch with my ice water, cough drops and Tylenol.

Touching the Arch - Boo's dream come true


Cool statue of Lewis and Clark in the Missippi River



Boom!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

What's On My Nightstand June 2009


Again this month I am a day late joining the What’s On Your Nightstand carnival at 5 Minutes for Books, but here’s my list for June:

Nonficition:

Just started reading God is the Gospel by John Piper. It will not be a fast read but I can already tell it will be a good read – things I need to be thinking about.

When Mama Ain’t Happy, Ain’t Nobody Happy! by Lindsey O’Connor. This one is our book study with our MOPS group this summer. I have to say I’m having a hard time getting into it. I don’t know if I’m resistant to the subject matter, tired, or what, but I haven’t gotten really excited about it yet. I keep saying, “I know this, what I want help with is remembering it in the grumpy times!” I'll let you know more as I read more.....

Fiction:

Just finished Inkspell by Cornelia Funke. Loved it! Can’t wait to read the last book in the trilogy, Inkdeath – which I’ve ordered from Amazon but am waiting for paperback so it will be little longer until it arrives to my nightstand.

Also just finished Running Out of Time by Margaret Peterson Haddix. Really liked it. I seem to be continuing in my juvenile fiction reading. Drew and I were joking the other day that I haven’t had to go to the public library in a long time. I just go to the library in Joshua's room and pull books from my son’s shelf to read. It’s fun having a kid old enough to be reading books I am enjoying, too!

Just finished reading Shiloh by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor with the boys. Last month I told Michael he’d answer to me if it ended sad since so many dog books do. He is off the hook – it wasn’t sad. Whew.

Now we’re reading The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane by Kate DiCamillo together, though we haven’t read it in over a week because we had VBS every night last week and the boys have spent the last few evenings watching taped episodes of Mythbusters with their dad. Priorities, you know….

Just started The Book of Time by Guillaume Prevost- another from Joshua’s library. I think once I finish this one I’ll be ready to read some ‘grown up’ books again. I’m liking this one so far. Though, in the interest of being an involved mom, I foresee more juvenile fiction in my near future. Good thing he's picking things I like to read!

Soon to be on the nightstand:

Inkdeath by Cornelia Funke.

I’ve also ordered The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, and I’ve heard interesting things about it, so I’m looking forward to this one, also.

Elle is reading Hoping for Something Better: Refusing to Settle for Life as Usual by Nancy Guthrie, and I’ve got a copy ordered. It’s a study of the book of Hebrews, and I’m very much looking forward to reading along.

Please visit 5 Minutes for Books to see what other people are reading and to share your list!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Worship

Please read the linked scripture passages to understand this post, or, even better read all of 2 Chronicles 31-32:


Background:
2 Chronicles 31:20-21

2 Chronicles 32:1

2 Chronicles 32:7-8

Focus:
2 Chronicles 32:10-15

This may seem like a strange passage from which to glean a devotional thought, but please hang with me for a few minutes.

I love to read Old Testament history, and it never ceases to amaze me the new things I learn or am encouraged to ponder every time I read through it. While reading about the kings of Israel in 2 Chronicles recently, I came once again to the story of Hezekiah king of Judah. Hezekiah’s father Ahaz did not do what was right in the sight of the LORD and during his reign Judah again slid into greater and greater apostasy. The history of Judah was a sad one with some kings who followed the LORD and others who, sadly did not, and it seems that as the leader went, so went the nation. When the king repented and was faithful, the people would follow, at least somewhat. However, when the king was not faithful, the people would also sink into idolatry and sin. Hezekiah was a light among the dark examples in that when he began to reign he cleansed the temple and restored true worship of Yahweh, kept the Passover, and even went so far in his reforms that he oversaw the breaking down of the sacred pillars and cutting down of the wooden images and throwing down the high places and altars, utterly destroying them, where the people of Israel had compromised and ultimately apostatized from the worship of the LORD God. In so doing, he restored proper worship and sought God in the way God had said He was to be sought.

So, how is it that when Sennacherib king of Assyria came against them, he would be of the mistaken notion that by tearing down the high places that Hezekiah had somehow done something to offend the God of Israel? Those high places and those altars were not where the people should have been worshiping, so to tear them down was an act of faithfulness to God, not unfaithfulness. It is because for so very many years, so very long, Israel had not been distinct from the pagan nations around them. Their worship had looked just like the pagan worship of the neighboring societies. Their compromise and refusal to worship God in a wholly different way to be completely free of compromise with the worldly systems of worship had served to undermine their witness to the watching world. Because for so long their worship had looked and been pagan, he did not recognize that the God of Israel was completely different from the pagan idols he knew. Their compromise and apostasy had prevented them from proclaiming the glory of their God in such a way that this pagan king would know that there was something very different about God and His people.

Israel was a covenant nation, they were to be different from the pagan nations around them. Their worship was to look different, they were to live differently, they were, in fact, to be a light to the world. When they neglected to take down the altars on the high places, they compromised that differentness. And all too often, their compromise led to outright spiritual rebellion in the form of forsaking their God, the one true God, for pagan idols and the rituals associated with them. Rather than being a visibly distinct people, they looked just like the nations around them. In so doing, they weakened their witness to the pagan world.

So, what is the application for today that I gleaned from this? When we use worldly wisdom to try to reach worldly people, aren’t we making the same kind of flawed error that Israel made in utilizing the high places - compromising on spiritual things? When our worship services are more focused on what we feel and want and like than they are focused on God and His glory, aren’t we guilty of the same thing? When people come in to our church services, are they encouraged to focus on themselves or on Christ? Are we making much of us, or are we making much of Jesus? Are man’s felt needs more important than God’s holy attributes? What is our reason for doing what we do? When we choose our music, is it all about the style and what we like, or do the words and doctrine taught in the songs matter? Do we sprinkle some Christian language and some mention of Jesus over worldly behavior and wisdom, or do we truly seek to be true to His word and be different from the world? Is it all about how much I enjoy the service, or is it about turning our attention to our Lord and Savior? Is it all about having ‘fun’ or is it about worshiping the God of all, the Creator, the One who has redeemed us from our sin?

I am becoming more and more convicted and convinced that the more we focus on us, the more we look and sound like the world, the more we lose our distinctiveness and our witness for Christ. The times I am encouraged most to worship are not the times my emotion and fleshly desires are fed. The times I am most undone in worship and most encouraged to truly worship are the times when it isn’t me I’m encouraged to think about at all, but Him. When Jesus is lifted up, He will draw all men to Himself. The more He is glorified, the more we ought to be seeing where we have things that need to be pruned as we are conformed to His image. Yes, He loves us. But He loves us, not because we are so wonderful. He loves us because He is so wonderful. We love Him because He first loved us, yes. But when He has called us, we are never the same. We are from that moment on being conformed to His image.

I recently started reading God is the Gospel by John Piper. In the introduction he makes the argument that when we shift our focus from God Himself being proclaimed as the greatest gift of the gospel, then “….we have turned the love of God and the gospel of Christ into a divine endorsement of our delight in many lesser things, especially the delight in our being made much of.” (Page 11, God is the Gospel, by John Piper) What he says here really got me thinking about how I think about God: “The acid test of biblical God-centeredness – and faithfulness to the gospel – is this: Do you feel more loved because God makes much of you, or because, at the cost of His Son, he enables you to enjoy making much of him forever? Does your happiness hang on seeing the cross of Christ as a witness to your worth, or as a way to enjoy God’s worth forever? Is God’s glory in Christ the foundation of your gladness?” (Page 11-12, God is the Gospel, by John Piper.

There is a lot to think about there as I think about how I worship. When we sing, when we listen to God’s word, is my focus more on my emotional response or on how much I’m enjoying the atmosphere or on other people, or is it on turning my attention to enjoying God Himself? I’m looking forward to reading more.

I wonder when the world sees us and how we worship God, what do they see us saying about God? Do they see us worshiping at the high places where we exalt the idols of our felt needs and our enjoyment of lesser things and bloating ourselves on entertaining our fleshly desires, or do they see us proclaiming that God is great, that Christ is worthy of all praise and that He is being high and lifted up. As long as we are focusing on being entertained and not on truly, biblically worshiping and enjoying Jesus and lifting Him up that all men may be drawn to Him, then I fear we are giving a wrong message to the world.

May I be truly satisfied in God, and not settling for much lesser things. May my heart sing to Him, not seek my own fleshly entertainment. When we sing, when we hear the word, may our hearts be drawn to Jesus, for He alone is worthy of our praise. How I long for this be true of me:

“One thing I have desired of the LORD,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the LORD
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the LORD,
And to inquire in His temple.” - Psalm 27:4

Sunday, June 14, 2009

G'Day, Mate!

Our VBS starts tonight and will run through Thursday night, so I may not get back to the blog before then. We are doing Lifeway's Boomerang Express this year. Please pray that children and their families will be reached with the gospel through this experience, and please pray for the workers to have wisdom, stamina, excitement, enthusiasm and health to show the love of Jesus to the children this week. Evening VBS can be especially tiring - please also pray for Boo. Drew and I are both working in VBS this year, so it will be late nights for her this week.

I have some blog post ideas rattling around in my head that I hope to get to soon. Maybe this week, but I'm not making any commitments to blog with everything else we have going this week.

Have a great week if I don't get back to the blog for the next few days!